How to Live in a Toxic Environment.
You cant.
Sorry for the harsh opener but it’s the truth. The goal for “living” in a toxic household should never be to make yourself completely comfortable or pretend that everything is fine. That's not survival, that's self abandonment. Here's the good news though, some of the most powerful growth and inner work can come from being in a toxic environment and that is because you are constantly being tested mentally, emotionally, and even physically, and because of that your growth can accelerate. But at some point you will reach a limit and you'll realize there's only so much inner work you can do in the same environment that is hurting you and the healthiest choice is to leave.
I've reached that point recently. Suddenly everything was triggering me, even things that have never bothered me before. I felt crestfallen. What was all the journaling and self reflection for if I felt like I was taking 20 steps backwards? Then it hit me, I was never supposed to be okay with the situation. I was never supposed to just ignore my feelings or shut them off. I'm a woman who is stepping into her most feminine self and feminine energy is about feeling, expressing and being open. If I can't safely express myself im betraying the very growth I'm working for.
So I made a decision, i’m leaving. I have no plan. I’m scared as hell. But as I place my hands on my chest and stomach, close my eyes, and breath, I feel calm and my intuition is telling me that this is the right choice. Once you decide to close a door with absolute certainty, you'll realize that there is another door that has been there all along.. And look at that, it's opening!
If you're still in a toxic household here's how to protect your peace until you can get out.
Of course I'm not gonna keep you hanging, although the ultimate goal is to leave, maybe its just not time yet.
Create a mental sanctuary - A safe inner world through journaling, praying, meditating.
Have a safe space - My safe space was my car, but it can also be your room, the library, or even a cute café that makes you feel at ease.
Get rid of the victim mindset - Everyone in your home is on their own journey, whether they realize it or not.
Celebrate micro wins - Every time you handle a trigger better or keep your peace, acknowledge it.
Practice emotional release - Dance, cry, walk, run, or try somatic shaking. It is very important to release any pinned-up emotions to maintain mental clarity and energy.
This season won’t last forever. Every step you take to protect your peace now is preparing you for the life you deserve and the woman you’re becoming.
Xo, Enyah
